Shaking off the old and letting go

Ran yesterday and ran today.

My new years resolutions are:

1. run every day
2. fit into my skinny jeans by my photo shoot

I'm giving up on my boyfriend, who i have now emailed three times with no response. I don't think i should see him in february.

I'm beginning a process of letting go of him. Letting go of some of my ideas about myself and letting go of the idea that I know what I want. I don't.

To that end, I would like to take this year to discover what I want. Explore different facets of myself and push my boundaries.

Last year on new year's eve, I joined some of my best friends in new mexico for the weekend. Jen was DETERMINED, as only she can be, to make her next year better than the previous one. She did all kinds of research on new years rituals, good luck omens and practices and we did them all. I think she has had one of the best years of her life. A healing year. I don't know that the results were as dramatic for the rest of us.

I don't think I need a dramatic change in my next year. But I need to move forward. I want to run forward this year. Steadily, fiercely and intently. Fast or slow depends on the day.

But running, for sure. No more walking.